Friday, January 2, 2009

Alton god?

Happy New Year everyone! Second day of 2009 and I'm actually kind of afraid about what's to come this year. I mean, 2008 blatantly kind of sucked which is boardline ironic considering i distinctly remember saying, "I already hate 2008!" Guess I kind of screwed myself over a bit; lack of optimism can kill when it wants to.

Don't get me wrong, my actual New Years Eve was certainly interesting. I ended up driving to Sam's and had a grand ole' time, to put it lightly anyway! Basically we started drinking at like 6:30 and just kind of LOL'd around until midnight. I bought an AWESOME hat from the dollar store though (random!) and then wrote, "KEVIN JONAS '09" on it because I do love that boy very dearly. As good as a time I had part of me couldn't help but feel guilty about not being home. Something about being there for my parents was bothering me whenever I saw Sam and her family having quaint little moments. I couldn't help but kind of just sigh out of sadness, God only knows the last time my family has been like that.

So.... resolutions anyone? I've been very on the fence about what I would like to accomplish this year. Because of this I'll list a few things that i wouldn't exactly consider "resolutions" but more so just things that I'll certainly have on my mind:

  1. Get back into therapy. I know I keep saying it but I also do know that it's a PRIORITY that I go back

  2. Stop screwing around when it comes to my intellect/grades. I'm a smart girl and feel that I've been neglecting that part of myself that used to be my main source of comfort. More reading, more writing and just generally more attempts to better my brain.

  3. I could go into MASS detail but essentially I need to sort out my priorities. I don't want to be in denial anymore, I want to be healthy and I want to STOP ruining my body because when it comes down to it, this is the only one I've got. I've already ruined myself with more than 25 scars and even though it kind of freaks me out, I WANT to live a long life.

I'm sure there are more things that I'll need to accomplish this year but it's a sort of take-things-as-they-come situation. Oh and there is one other thing I wouldn't mind taking care of..... hmph, I want to win back his trust. 'Nuf said.

Otherwise? I'm watching Alton Brown make a whole bunch of things with potatoes! Watching him makes me want to aspire to cook as well as he does; not to mention I find him attractive in a weird sort of way. Hmm, he's just sexy, I'm not ashamed to say that!

How could you NOT love him? <3

AND.... I made my own hummus! Yaaaaaaay.