Tired little fellow(-ette!)

I really do suck at blogging sometimes. Not surprising information to state anymore if you ask me. I guess a quick summary of life will suffice because under normal circumstances I would do some late night blogging to detail the perfect amount of information but I'm EXHAUSTED once again. I just need to pass-the-frick-out.


Why am I so exhausted? A combination of work and running I would say; although there is the other factor that I've slept less than 6 hours the past 3 or 4 nights. Don't misinterpret it though, I actually really love getting my ass kicked by work. It makes me feel kind of accomplished and useful... plus the money aspect of couse! I think, however, that today I wore myself out by getting up at 6:30, working from 8 to 2 nonstop and then going straight from work to the park to run 3.1 miles. Derrrrr. I knew as soon as I got out of work that my calves were hurting but in the past running has managed to make the work pains go away fairly well... I thought it would work!


I'm just sitting in bed now feeling tired and achy. Tomorrow is basically the start of my "JampackedJune!" Such an event contains things such as the Peer Institute this week, a bunch more working, cooking for/attending a bridal shower, making a trip to Pennsylvania, a wedding and to calm everything down? A WEEK IN MYRTLE BEACH. I.can't.waittttttt.


Wow, this was vague and fairly unimportant. My eyes are closing on my though, sleeepy time awaits me. Goodnight =)

A GAD? In Whole Foods? Come onnnnnnnn.

Old Navy let us down. The lines in the stores were out of the WAZOO (Courtney took a video to prove it) and even if we had managed to obtain flip flops in our sizes it just wasn't worth it. The more I think about it, the less of a big deal it is. So I'll just return to Old Navy on Monday and buy the flip flops for $2.50... no biggieeeeeee. It was still a fun time with PaceFace, as per usual!


Oh and also.....




(sings)


I went to Wholeeeee Foods, I went to Wholeeeeee Foods, I went to Wholeeeeeee Foods.


It never fails to make me a ridiculously happy child to take a trip to that food store. Even though when I was in the store today I had a VERY awkward moment with an extremely cute guy. Edi thought it would be a fun game to call me so I was talking to him while I roamed around. One of the main reasons I went was to pick up my first container of protein powder so I was standing in front of all of them for quite a while trying to decided which one would be the best. As I'm looking this AMAZING hot guy comes over next to me and starts looking through the powders as well. Because I'm a silly girl I immediately walked away and because I'm a STUPID girl I apparently couldn't keep my thoughts to myself and said to Edi as I walked away, "Oh my God the HOTTEST GUY was just standing next to me looking at the protein powder." He asked me a question and as I looked back low and behold, hottie was right behind me; he heard everything I had just said. FML.


I run away to the yogurt aisle and am whining into the phone about how I just embarassed myself. I look to my right and GUESS WHO MAGICALLY APPEARED NEXT TO ME?? The amazing hot guy, OF COURSE. I'm trying to not make an ass out of myself any further and this entire time all I'm hearing out of the phone is, "Where is he now?!?!?! Where'd the hot guy go?!?!" FMLx2.


After that I didn't see him any further but ARGHHHHHHH why did I do that?!?! He was a beautiful guy and clearly he cared about nutrition, HENCE BEING IN WHOLE FOODS. Sigh, another awkward moment on my behalf. Don't get me wrong though, it's definitely LOL worthy... sometimes I wish I knew how to act like a normal flirty girl!


At least I picked up all the things I went there for! I apologize for no pictures what-so-ever but I'm still camera-less. In my purchase though I bought vanilla soy milk, finely ground flax seeds, a small container of vanilla soy protein powder (24g of protein!!!! Holy whoaaaaaa!), a fruit leather (cranberry... gotta rep Rider!), 3 Larabars (Cocunut, Chocolate Mole and Pistachio), a ThinkFruit bar (I believe it's called) and A NEW JAR OF ALMOND BUTTER. I ended up spending $28 but now have almost all the components to make my own Green Monster shake! I think I first read about it on Jenna's blog but I've seen it all over the blogworld in general. Everything about these creations seems so awesome so naturally (because the women of the blogworld are basically my life inspirations!!!) I figured I would take a crack at it as well! I'm getting spinach tomorrow so after my run I will begin the experimentationnnnnn =)




In running news I still don't have a pedometer (meh) and actually am not really too sure how far I ran today. I did the normal mile no problem but then I looped around this lake as a change today and there were no little wooden planks that told me what mile I was on so I got SUPERRRR confused. I think it may have been 4 miles or more but my Ipod said 46 minutes but I KNOW that I didn't slow down or anything of the sort. Like I said, SUPER confused. Tomorrow I'm just going to go my usual route so at least I'll accurately know how far I've gone! I'm horrible with math in every scenario possible..... whooops.




Hmm, it seems like it's going to be an early night so I guess I'll finish the METS game and then heda into the basement/cave and read more of my nutrition book. I know, I'm a lame-o. Goodnightttttt =)

These are what summer nights are SUPPOSE to be like

Bonjourrrrrr everyone! It's official to say that late nights in New Jersey aren't as interesting as I used to think them to be. Back in the day (high school?) there was bowling and diners and movies and all these fun things to do. They involved money but when in high school, money wasn't as big of a factor as it is now. Now I'm in desperate need of all the money I can get and therefore cannot go around galavanting (YES I used that word) and throwing my money around. It sucks but you know what sucks more? Bumming money off of your parents for gas and school books and junk like that. Grapes, being in your 20's is a completely different world from the years of the teens. HA, I sound so old right now.


I will say, however, that I still managed to have a pretty fun Friday night despite money issues. My girl Courtney, whom I've been friends with since 3rd grade, arrived at my abode and after much deliberation we decided to simply head over to a local Dunkin Dounts. We basically epitomized what a summer night would be, sitting on the hood of my car in a parking lot on the side of the highway drinking coffee, smoking cigarettes (she did) and just talking. Twas a good time I must say, there really is something about nights in Jersey that just make you feel so content.
Ohhhh New Jersey I do love you so, even if I complain about you sometimes! 201 representtttttt!


In summary tomorrow will include the following:

• A nice early morning run
• Dollar flip flop mania at Old Navy!
• WHOLE FOODS
• Farmer's market!
• MORE wedding dress shopping with my mommy and her friend

I'm sure there will be other random shenanigans thrown in there as well but one thing at a time!! Until tomorrow then... nighty night =)

NOT a marshmallow.

Late night blogging! Rawrrrrrrr.




I ended up working a tad bit longer than anticipated so now I'm quite sleepy and my legs are aching as per usual. I know a good run tomorrow morning will make them feel better though; not sure how that works exactly, it just does!


While at work I chowed down on a Smores Luna bar and although I enjoyed it for the most part, I failed to taste the "smores" element of it. Was there supposed to be marshmallows hiding in there somewhere? If so, then they tots ran away from me and my Luna bar was basically a bunch of chocolate and that's about it.


Hold on, can someone explain to me how when I googled marshmallow THIS was one of the first things that came up????

D'AWWWWWWWWWWWW! SO FLUFFY AND CUTE! Puppieeeesssssssssssssssss are adorableeeeeeeeee and this one must be named marshmallow or somethingggggg! Wow, OK I'm done but still... this guy is clearly NOT a marshmallow food stuff. Google has lied to me!


One more thought before I venture to apply my 4 different skin creams and put myself to bed. Ricky Martin's "Livin' La Vida Loca" makes me feel sexy and I seriously don't know why. My lips are not devil red nor is my skin the color of mocha. On the contrary....


(sings)
Lipssss are light pink-ishhh and her skin has eczema and rednesssssss.


I think not. Oh well, I can still live a crazy life anyway =)

It's blooooooood. DER.

'Allo 'allo everyone! I've got about 3 hours or so until I have to go to work and am just sort of lala-ing around. Max is sitting on my foot because he needs to feel wanted sometimes; I wonder if he gets bored just sitting on people's feet. Oh well, I love him despite his weird liking for feet.

I got blood work done today for the first time! Naturally it wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be, although I had my head turned to the side the ENTIRE time in fear of seeing my vein just kind of chillin' there. Bleh, I get the willys just thinking about it! Doesn't matter though because I did it and I might just be able to donate blood next time there's an opportunity... maybe? Haha.

I thought about going running today but calves have been bugging me a little bit so today is an unofficial rest day even though I'll be on my feet for 7 hours later anyway! When it comes to my times and progress, I think my times are slowly getting better. Yesterday I managed 3.3 miles (a little above the standard 5K) in about 30 minutes and 29 seconds. Gah! 29 seconds shy of 29 minutes.... it's progress though! This just shows, however, that I desperately need a well working pedometer to properly keep track of distance/time/etc. etc. etc. For now I'll just have to keep using the stopwatch on my Ipod until I get paid.

I don't think I'll even be able to buy a pedometer though! The first thing I wanted to do with some of the money I got was buy a new camera for June when I magically become quite busy with traveling shenanigans and such! I'm not sure what kind of camera I'm going to get. There was this one Kodak one that got pretty good reviews and is only about $116. Have to make sure I pick out the right one though, I'm notorious for breaking electronics VERY easily... you know, because I'm just awesome like that and everything.

Oh cripes, now that I'm talking about money I'm slowlyyy beginning to remember all the things I wanted to buy when I got paid! Of course, Whole Foods was what first popped into my brain! That place really knows how to steal your heart (and your money!)

Like I said, random entry but alas, I have to leave for work in twenty minutes! Until laterrrrrr =)

She works haaaard for the money!

Well, it's Sunday night and I'm EXHAUSTED to say the least. I know this because although no one can see it, I've misspelled two words in this post already. I am a tired, tired, child! I didn't write about this (could've sworn I did though!) but good news to be announced, the Green Onion was gracious enough to take me back for the summer! I got right back into the swing of things, working 10AM to 9PM yesterday and 9AM to 6:30PM today. My feet hurt, my calves ache and the eczema on my hands is going CRAZY right now but despite that I'm overjoyed to be working again. I missed the constant business of that place and the craziness as well! Ahem, the pay doesn't hurt too much either ;D




I very much want to post more but it's just not in me right now. Tomorrow, however, shall be jammed packed with my random writings about life, love (??) and the summer that is 2009. Goodnightttt everyone!

Where did that half mile come from?

I can't really understand how last night I went to sleep at 1:30 and woke up at 6... and I feel kind of awesome today. Weirdddd.


Because I was up so early, I took it as a sign to take my ass to the park and do some runnin'. According to the stopwatch on my Ipod (which is the only source of time I have currently until I invest in a pedometer), I managed 3 miles in 33 minutes. That would mean that I somehow managed another half mile in the span of about two days. I mean, I wasn't completely out of breath or anything nor do I think that I was unknowingly doing speed intervals or anything. What I'm thinking might be the case is that because I was running steadily for a month at Rider my body is simply getting used to running outside instead of on a treadmill. I told my dad (the only source of running knowledge I have in my house) and he seemed to agree. I guess it'll be a matter of whether I am able to accomplish stats that are similar to that of today! For what it's worth though, I'm pleased with myself for going 4 miles today. The last mile I kind of walked for maybe .2 and then went about my normal pace again. Technically, I almost ran 4 miles today but not quite.


Such as life though! My stupid face shall continue running as much as possible and maybe even make a vagueeeeeeeeeee attempt at the yoga thing again. Maybe? Hahahahahaha.




For the record, that carton of egg whites in my house holds A LOT more egg whites than I thought. My solution?


Yeah. Clearly you can't tell from the picture what they are so I shall tell you. COCONUT MERINGUES! AND I MADE THEM! I'm proud of myself, in case no one noticed. VERY easy to make and I'm in the works of making mooorrreeee so they will be ALL OVER THE HOUSE! Rawrrrr.
Obviously someone needs to buy a real camera. However, despite the lack of photogenic-ness, these little guys came out light, air-y and the coconut taste was a lovely compliment! They're only 35 calories a piece so it won't be such a terrible thing to have them here. I'm going to see what else I can add to the mix to make them more fun. Can anyone say cocoa powder? Chocolate air is next on the list!


Perhaps an update later? I still feel like it's really early, waking up at 6 has made my brain go all mushy... I feel like I've been up for hours! Wow. I've gone a little wacky and because of this I'm trudging back into the kitchen.


Have a fabulous day! =)

Blast you! You know one of my weaknesses!

My jobless life has been saved in this point in time! The Green Onion has graciously offered to give me back my job for the summer so I'm EXTREMELY excited to be able to go back. Sometimes I complain that I'm tired and ache-y and such but the bottom line will forever stand that the Onion is my place of belonging. I'll be back to behind the scenes kitchen duty on Saturday @ 10 and Sunday @ 10 as well! =)


I didn't get to run today (MEH THE RAINNNN) and when it comes to eating I did fairly well but then ruined it with the help of a lovely thing I like to call NORTH JERSEY DINERS. As a North Jersey girl to the core, one of my weaknesses is a good ole' fashioned diner that provides disco fries, chocolate chip pancakes and endless refills of cawfee! God, I do love diners and have always been around them; there's at least 6 diners within a ten minute driving distance from my house and I know of at least 10 more if those previous 6 happen to fail! Diners were definitely one of the things I missed most about being back in G-field. Even if you have no money, pull together $1.25 and you can have as much cawfee as you want, it's a crowdpleaser!

This is the particular diner I was stationed at tonight... the lovely Saddlebrook Diner!


I need to DEFINITELY go running tomorrow and because I HAVE MY CAR BACK (cue the angels singinggg), it should be a task that I shall for sure accomplish! It's past midnight but I'm going to LOL around the internet a bit longer looking for egg white cookie recipes, pedometers, freelance writing jobs and Textsfromlastnight.com! Gooddddnighhhttt everyone! (or anyone?!?)

And the summer has officially begun!

Well, it's lovely to be back blogging again...again...again. I think in retrospect I have enough of a reason as to why I'm been extremely MIA lately! I've been dedicated to a life of gym stuffs, my health stuffs, LOTS of school stuffs, friends stuffs and last Rider days stuffs. Busy busy Keri I have been but now my life has certainly calmed down for the better I think.

I'm HOME for one thing! Yes, my sophomore year at Rider University has come and gone in what seriously seems to have been, the blink of an eye. I officially moved out the day before yesterday and in my time being away from Rider I've been doing a lot of reflecting; specifically on what has gone on this past year at my second home. Kind of sad, kind of exciting, basically it's just been a HUGE chain of emotions/events/life lessons. When it comes down to it, I guess I would have to say that I'm grateful for everything that has happened this year. It's made me grow as a person and I was forced to get my priorities in order, which meant making some super hard decisions. Even to this day I still think back and wonder as to whether things could've been different but then I look at where I am now and see that I am so much happier than I've ever been. It's all been for the better!

For one thing, I'm prettyyyy sure that my count would have been continuously broken if I hadn't decided to change. There were so many stress factors apparent and all these horribly negative feelings and it was all just a constant battle in my head; I was heading downhill and in a HURRY. With a doubt, counseling saved my life. I have absolutely no problem saying that, I'm actually proud to say that. Help was there and I took it, fully knowing that I had hard times ahead. Having Leah there to talk to every week was seriously like a gift sent from God; there is NO way I would've survived a good chunk of the year without my weekly Tuesday sessions. She always was the voice of reason, listening to whatever shenanigans I decided to spew out at her and always putting things into perspective. One of her favorite things to tell me was, "It's OK to feel that way." One of the main reasons that I was in denial for so long was because I didn't want to be that girl who was being an asshole about every aspect in her life. I didn't believe that things were really that bad so I figured my daily habits and ways of living were OK.

HEY SELF, NEWS FLASH. THOSE HABITS WERE KILLING YOU.

Only in counseling did I feel OK enough to say how I really felt and only in counseling did I learn that there was nothing wrong with being angry and not everything that happened was MY FAULT. I was forced to deal with things that caused me anxiety and had to dig deeper in my emotions to fix things from where they started. The kind of stuff that involved questions like, "Why do you feel like that?" and "What's this action hiding?" I would be lying if I said that it wasn't a pain in the ass. There were multiple days when all I wanted to do was break my count and fast. I pushed through it though and I continue to push through it. Leah helped me to slowly begin to realize that I am more than what I've made myself into. I'm NOT that girl who puts on a facade of happiness but secretly hides her sadness and EDNOS.

I AM a girl who does not use happiness as a facade but as a way to live. I AM a girl with an EDNOS but I'm not ashamed to admit it because I'm fighting and I'm going to win. I'm slowly beginning to love life and maybe someday, even love myself as well. It's all one step at a time =)




That's a summary of my brain during the entirety of this year. Actually, that's a summary of the more serious stuff... the fun stuff would be a hell of a lot more entertaining to write blog about! My apologies already, this is going to be a VERY LONG POST...................




FUN THINGS OF MY YEAR INCLUDED THE FOLLOWING: Queer as Folk marathons with roomie, MEETING HAL SPARKS, FabulousFallPhotoshoot'09, dates with Kat on Tuesdays and Thursdays, stalking HPK, being Shakira, the Halloween Parade in the Village (!!!!!), Rob Pattinson's commentary on life "I'm sorry Bella, I'm just a sweaty guy!", the tiniest pizza to ever exist ever, being honorary RA's in Poyda, Thirsty Wednesday, drinking Champagne for no apparent reason, the invention of the LaSkam, anything Goldie has ever said, "Ohhh Noooooo!", Professor Maynard... enough said, Cloisters, our new found sorority POE (Phi Omega Epsilon), "this one's from... the dog catcher!" AND MANY MANY MANY MORE.


I just realized that if anyone in the blogworld is in fact reading my blog they probably won't be wanting to read about my random ass inside jokes. Heehee, I still appreciate them though!




Change of topic, and the reason I started this blog in the first place, FOOD AND EXERCISE-NESSSSSSS. As a quick update, I've been running at least five times a week for the past month and my body is slowly developing a need for running in order to function correctly. However, moving back home threw my schedule off a bit. I hadn't run since Saturday for two main reasons 1) My car is still in the shop and 2) I've been unpacking nonstop. Even though it's only been three days, that's three days too long for me. I blatantly asked my dad this morning if he would drive me to the park so I could run. (SIDE NOTE: I'm still a bit self-conscious running in my hometown because I'm convinced that almost everyone I went to high school with hates me so I prefer to run in a park that's a couple towns away from mine. Pleaseeee don'tttt judgeeee meeeeeeee.) Basically I have to start all over again because I'm running outside now, my dad thinks it's more fun to use our treadmill as a stuff holder, and in my opinion those two things are VERYYY different. I got out, I ran and, sigh, went 2.5 miles in 30 minutes. I'm slightly discouraged but I'm just going to keep going because that's the only real way to increase my endurance and such.......just gotta go with da' floooooow.




My god, this entry is ridiculous! I'll make the food part quick. I had AWESOME homemade oats for breakfast (with bananas, strawberries, walnuts, wheat germ and LOVE) which I very much want to further enhance with some kind of flax or something of the sort. For lunch, some higher power put a carton of egg whites in my fridge so I had a good serving of those with a tiny bit of cheese, tomatoes and salsa, along with a piece of bread and half of a gala. Munched on some rice cakes (probably about 10) throughout the day and for dinner I had lots of soybeans, some leftover green beans, cut up cucumbers with roasted garlic hummus (which I LOVE) and an open-faced turkey sandwich. Very vague description but I figure that since I'm done telling the world about my "post Rider bwananas" I'll be able to focus better on nutrition/exercise/all the interesting things! Although along with that will also be my tribulations with jobs, PHOCUS, friend visiting and all that OTHER interesting stuff. It's going to be some kind of summer kids, believe me.


I'm done, I swear! At least until tomorrow!Nothing says summer like a good ole' fashioned giant sunflower =)